My first year of motherhood is coming to a close and I hate to see it go…or do I? I’m not sure yet, but one thing i am sure of is that being a mom is what I was made for.
Even though as I write this my little guy is fussing for a playmate and I will have to stop and restart this passage several more times; I am okay with that. Because right now I am just proud to say we survived our first year together – even though there were times when I wasn’t sure if we would make it through or not.
Having a child changes everything you have ever known and it changes in a split second – the very second when your doctor places your babe in your arms for the first time. But, to all other mommas just starting – or even in the middle of – your first year of motherhood, just know its going to be okay, you will survive.
There will be times you are not sure if you can go on….
For awhile I was nursing and our little man did not like being set down. We had to snuggle him constantly. There was a point where I wondered how life could ever be normal again. Would I be able to be touched all day everyday? would I ever be able to get up and get a glass of water again? Yes…In fact, phases like these come and go so quickly, and now my little guy will barely ever hold still long enough to snuggle. Hang in there – better yet – enjoy it, because before you know it they are crawling, walking, playing and are just way too cool to snuggle anymore.
There will be times you feel sad and overwhelmed…
For me I had more tears in my first year of motherhood than my whole entire life combined (yeah..okay, exaggeration, but you get the picture). I felt like I couldn’t balance all the new roles I had. In fact, I felt that way like yesterday. My devotional reminded me that even Jesus needed quiet time and moments wehn he could be alone. We ALL need that. No on is perfect, don’t be afraid to ask for help. And, don’t be afraid to set aside some alone time to do something you love. I went to a movie by myself the other night, something I used to do A LOT before I was married, and it was a nearly spiritual experience. I came back refreshed and relaxed, just what you need to feel to be the best mom you can be.
You will probably feel out of place…
I know I did. Being with y friends was enjoyable, but there were definitely times when I felt like I didn’t belong anymore. My world revolved around my husband and child now. All I had to talk about were my husband and child, but I didn’t want to be THAT person. You know, the one who only talks about their husband and child. I remember when I was single I would be so annoyed by people who seemed so perfect with their kids and happy marriage. But, then when I really thought about it – we listen to friends talk about dates, parties and promotions, whether I really want to or not, so they can put up with diapers, milestones and cute pictures once in awhile. If they are annoyed by that, then they probably aren’t very good friends anyways.
You will DEFINITELY thank God every day for your life…
Everyone always says it. “It’s hard but totally worth it.” They are so right. The stress, anger, guilt, sadness and overwhelm will come and go, but those little smiles, hugs, giggles, first steps, milestones all make it 100% worth it. I thank God daily for finally showing me my life’s purpose – being a mommy.